Well the title of my last post was “It has been a while,” so I should title this one “It has been a lot longer while.” I have not been on here in quite a bit, not for lack of time, for I have an abundance of time, but for lack of, shall I say, inspiration. Boredom has yet to set in, but feelings of absolute uselessness have. When I was in school and working I wished for a few minutes of nothing, time where I could just stop and do nothing, think of nothing. Well, now I have all this nothing time and I want to scream. I admit I am a nerd at heart, I feel ineffective without being in school (and I shudder as I write this, but I miss the asylum that was my job, ahhhhhhh). I ran away from my daily stress and headaches to create new ones, because I feel an empty hole where they used to reside. I guess I am more content on the brink of a mental breakdown than when I have nothing to do. Am I odd? Oh yes, more than words can describe (and most mental practitioners as well). So now I await the 10th of next month when I begin a course in Russian language and culture (I guess I did enjoy the torture the first time around, so I have chosen to continue with it). So now that I have brought everyone up to par with my mental state, I shall leave you with the lyrics of a song I have been enjoying quite a bit,



The Fray’s “How to Save a Life”

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life